Blog with Hash: What happened?

Blog with Hash and Ash
2 min readAug 17, 2020

If you have followed this series, you might’ve wondered what happened to the girl who told the readers to expect her content at least 3 times a week.

Don’t worry… Nothing really happened.

Nothing really happened.

Then why didn’t I write?

Well. It’s not something I could explain in words.

I used to love to write. I still do.

Then what’s the problem with this not writing?

The problem is me.

Basically, I try to do something and do it for a short amount of time and then I give up. I get disheartened & disappointed in myself and do something else to distract myself (like binge watching something.. I watched 2 k-dramas)

That’s what happened.

I started this “100_days_of_productivity_challenge”. I did well for 2 days and couldn’t cope up on next day. I felt disheartened. I was gonna publish my stories of doing that challenge here. Since I was disappointed in myself, I couldn’t.

I am well aware of this pattern.

And every time, I try to break out of it.

My mental state plays a good role in this. It is unpredictable. I know lot of ways to keep my mental state stable. But problem is, I don’t do it.

I think the reason I cannot change is, I’m comfortable. I’m too comfortable in my lifestyle.

Rather than pushing myself out of my boundaries and making me uncomfortable, I do things which are comfortable to me. I know this will lead to a lifestyle which won’t be my dream lifestyle. But still, my mind is not understanding it.

Taking risks will lead me to a completely different things. Those things can be good or bad. That unknown is very uncomfortable factor for me.

I have that fear of unknown.

Even though, things might change for good. I still have that fear which paralyses me.

I need to sensitize myself of that fear.

How to do that?

It’s simple. I should do things which I fear. I have a list of things I fear, I’ll try to do that one by one and share my experience with you in upcoming stories.

With Love, Hash.

Blog with Hash and Ash

We are Ash and Hash,two different personalities coming together to share our stories and perspectives on situations we face everyday